The Room i've been living in for the past two weeks :(
I'm just so tired of this education system i'm in :(
Labels: Education System
12:16 am
Monday, February 23, 2009
The Room i've been living in for the past two weeks :(
I'm just so tired of this education system i'm in :(
12:16 am
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Why am i feeling so screwed with my life? I suck at studies, i don't bowl particularly well, i'm single on Valentine ’s Day and I’m inherited with deficiencies every part of my body. Why can't i be like other people who score good grades are excellent in their PDPs are happily in love and have perfect bodies. I just don't understand this world!
Why is it that we strive for equality when there already exist so many inequalities in us? My life to its current points has been filled with struggles and pain. I've never thoroughly enjoyed my life apart from those snippets where i actually felt the world was behind my back. In 18 years, i struggled to get on my feet, struggled to hold a pen correctly, struggled to pass that second language of mine, death with the pain of awful results time and time again despite studying, getting rejected by the people i adore most, lacking the guts to fight for my cause. The list goess onnn and onnn. Positives are non-existent! Why do i always take the wrong path that leads to so much unhappiness?
Right now i need to fly away from this torture land. I need to find a place where i can find comfort in, where i truly feel in my comfort zone, where society doesn't discriminate you base on your appearance. A place called my fairyland. Does such a place even exist? Well i hope so.
I need people to accept me for who I am! Yes admit I have my shortcomings and faults. But who doesn't? Does the world even spare a thought for you? NO they just outcast you in society and make you feel like downright dirt. I want someone to share my love with. Be it friends or foe. I need someone who i can share everything with! EVERYTHING AND NOT SOMETHINGS. I feel like a lost cause.
Today is a sad day. I don't look forward to school tomorrow :(
I really need you in my life right now. Help me of out the slump please. Help me acheive what i ever so dearly yearn for. I want things to change for better but i don't know how! I keep trying but everytime i only fall deeper in. Its a trench so deep impossible to climb.I'm lost with my personal live and how to live it. But with you, nothing is impossible.
Labels: Sad Day
10:13 pm
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Orientation + its nostalgic feelings are finally over. With that said, the main glitz of my council term has passed and a great sense of relief has been brought upon this dying soul of my. Really reallly really very happy that i got to interact with some of the OGMs. One of you totally made my day with the note of appreciation! It really means alot to me :) To the others who sent me SMSes thank you also! It really makes the pain all worthwhile.
Orientation Night and mass dance turned out really well. The heavens were on our side by keeping themselves close and the OGMs utterly enjoyed themselves during O Night. To the point that they ripped out the audio mixer cable. Seeing the smile on the faces of OGMs is what kept me going. Seriously
Had post evaluation today and I’m really glad most of you spoke the truth. I realise that I’m a seriously flawed person :( Never did i expect that a joke could be taken as something seriously to the point you would get offended. Well you can't get everyone in the world to like you so what the point of repairing a friendship beyond repair. Some wounds leave a scare after they heal and i guess you're just one of them.
Off to catch up with my HW.
Note: To the history teacher that caught me for my hair today and insulated me just because i was a council member, i think you're an awfully atrocious snobbish guy who fakes an American accent and THINKS you're cool. BUT YOU'RE NOT!
Labels: Orientation
8:13 pm