Considering how dead this blog has been. Its hardly surprising this would be probably be the sole and only post for the New Year. I guess as much as i would have liked to abandon the blog, the past 3 years or so has taught me never to forget the past.

2009 was probably the worst year of my life and ironically also the best year. From ripping the seeds of my hard work in sports to falling into state just short of depression upon receiving my prelim results. I guess most people wouldn't understand this feeling and that was perhaps the only reason why i tried my best to disguise the pain. Even my parents for that matter. The only person who perhaps understood me most was my lord, Jesus. Its amazing how the supernatural works in way we never could imagine. From the homilies during mass to individual confessions, his messages always seems to get to me somehow. Perhaps the most of comforting of them was the hug Father Fred offered upon hearing about the state i was in. I know it sounds wrong(guy-guy hug) but in a churchly context, nothings wrong. Plus it made me feel a whole lot better. Although i hope for good grades for the A-Levels, i've always believed in accepting what god wants. Looking back, I've come to realize that there's so much more to life than just our stupid Singapore Education System. I want to experience a truly enjoyable learning environment and not one where everybody is fighting to be on top of one another, comparing grades and even backstabbing at times. I really hope my parents,especially my mum does see this desired further that i really really want. I know i won't be happy in Singapore and as they always say "life's too short for regrets"

On a happier note, 2009 was the year my aged fell into the young adult category. Sex, Alcohol and M18 movies became legal and learning driving was like the first thing i wanted to accomplish. Haha, now that i've gotten my license it doesn't feel that great after all.

Perhaps the most commendable achievement was proving everyone wrong during A-Division. Nobody taught i was capable of what i achieved and honestly neither was i. Call me a sadist but i just love feeling of proving people wrong and seeing the smug on their faces. Well i just really hope to pass on the experience to those whom i think are not performing up to expectations.

And that's my year in a nutshell...Good Bye Blog :)

2010 Resolutions
1)Love all my family and friends the way Jesus Loves all of us :) Make sure they feel that love.
2)Be a really safe driver, screw those who think driving is cool cause I'm too young to be putting myself in unnecessary danger.
3)Be a really good senior to all the bowlers and councilors. Enforce the value:ACTION SPEAKS 100000TIMES LOUDER THAN WORDS
4)Get into OCS! I need to bring the family some honor to override all the shame I've brought.
5)Start searching for that special girl. No forceful tactics thought, everything has to happen naturally :)

Labels: 2009

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